dynamic.

there are just some things that I think need to happen

such as

the economy not sucking,
my room being clean,
my stomach to be flat,
my homework to be done,
and
a guy to be genuine and great!

I think maybe all of those things are possible except the last.

Okay,
more realistically all those things can be achieved but with lots of TIME and EFFORT.
But achievable nonetheless. At least I hope so.
I'm thinking that it is definitely hard to find a guy that is genuine.
And when I say genuine I mean someone who doesn't play with your emotions just because he's unsure of his and then leaves you, empty handed and heart broken, traveling on the road to another girl. I think it's gonna be a while until I am proven wrong about guys, but guys are just douches that only care about ONE thing and ONE thing only...no matter who they are "good" guy or not...they are all the same.


If I am wrong please show me someone who is not like the guy I just described...and I would like to meet them and see for myself. Because I will not believe you otherwise.

End of story.

good night and good luck ladies.

interest vs. infactuaction

when some people have an effect on you like you never expected them to, it can hurt, pleasantly surprise, anger, or annoy you. Why does this happen?
Is it because you underestimated them?
or maybe overestimated?
Nevertheless, it happens.

The emotions involved are delicate, they leave you unsure of yourself.
Take into consideration alternate endings, that protect you a little bit more.
these decisions can be difficult and yet necessary.
saying goodbye...farewell...see you later...bon voyage...au revoir...bye.
is harder when your heart began a stitch onto anothers...

Do you like toying with my emotions like a yo-yo?
Does it make your insecurities appear less real?
How do you like playing the role of an actor?


Severing the stitches and keeping my distance will protect my tender heart, bruised and scabbed.

My heart will forever be enclosed within the palms of my self's barricade until the gentleman holding the key to the gate arrives with impeccable timing. There are beautiful secrets hidden behind these gates, for one's eyes only. If you don't have the key there is entrance.




When wisdom is present, windows are clean, streak-free.
And the cobblestones are straightened into pavement.
The destination is clear and in plain-sight, unobstructed by trees, buildings, smog, and obstacles.